innflicthhis,andtobe
certainthathesparedherfelejudgntnoounceofhislescularityheseedtoargueasfiercelyh
herasifshehertheywerealike,however,
inbelievingthatitbehoovedtheotakeinhandtherepairandrenstructionofthefabrifenglandtheyagreedinthinkingthatnaturehasnotbeengenerousintheendoofouruncilorstheyagreed,unnsciously,inatelovefortheddyfieldthroughh
theytraed,heyesnarrohencentration
oftheidsatlengththeydreh,let
thearguntflyaboofothergoodargunts,
and,leaningoveragate,openedtheireyesforthefirsttiandlookedaboutthetheirfeettingledbloodandtheirbreathroseinstearound
thethebodilyexeroredirect
andlessselfnsary,indeed,
ebyasortoflightheadednessade
itseeoherthatittteredverylittlehappenednextittteredsolittle,indeed,thatshefeltherself187
nightandday
onthepointofsayingtoralph:
“iloveyou;ishallneverloveanybodyelserryorleave;thinkeidontcarea
straont,hoed
iaterial,andsherelyclappedherhandstogether,andlookedatthedistant
ontheirbrohegreenandbluelandscapethroughthesteafheroedaretossup
hershesaid,“iloveyou,”orhershesaid,“i
lovethebeechtrees,”oronly“iloveilove”
“doyouknoary,”ralphsuddenlyinterruptedher,“ivedeupnd”
herindifferencesthavebeensuperficial,foritdisappearedatonceindeed,shelostsightofthetrees,andsaostbarofthegateh
extredistinctness,on:
“ivedeupndtochuckworkandlivedown
hereieaboutthatttageyouspoke
ofhoherellbenodifficultyaboutgetting
attage,ption
of
shestilltontinue;shewas
nvincedthatinsoroundabouthed
thesubjearriage
“icantstandtheofficeanylonger,”heproceeded“idontknoyfalysureiight
dontyouthinkso”
“livedownherebyyourself”sheasked
“sooldane,isuppose,”hereplied
“iickofthehing,”heon,and
openedthegatehajerktheybegantocrossthe
nextfieldwalkingsidebyside
“itellyou,ry,itsutterdestruction,workingaway,dayafterday,atstuffthatdoesnttteradatoanyoneivestoodeightyearsofit,andiotgoingtostanditanylongerisupposethisallseetoyoud,though”
bythistiryhadreveredherselfntrol
“noithoughtyouhappy,”shesaid
“hinkthat”heasked,esurprise
“dontyoureerthatinginlinlnsinn
188
virginiawoolf
fields”sheasked
“yes,”saidralph,slackeninghispaceandreeringkatharineandherengagent,thepurpleleavesstaedintothepath,theepaperradiantundertheelectriclight,andthehopelessnessedtosurroundallthesethings
“youreright,ry,”hesaid,ethingofaneffort,“thoughidontkno”
sheighttellherthereason
ofhisunhappiness,forhisexcuseshadnotdeceivedher“ie
sixfrohatafteoonwhenhe
hadsatupontheeankntchinghisvisionsdissolveinstasthepastandthesenseof
hisdesolationstilldehihiverhehadnotreveredintheleastfrohatdepressionhereunity
forkinghielffaceit,ashefeltthathe
oughtto;for,bythisti,nodoubt,itental
ghost,betterexorcisedbyruthlessexposuretosuchaneyeasrys,thanalloounderlieallhis
actionsandthoughtsashadbeenthecaseeversincehefirstsaustbegin,
hoentioninghea,andthishefound
itiossibletodohepersuadedhielfthatheuldkeanhoneststatente;
hepersuadedhielfthathisfeelinghadverylittletodohher
“unhappinessisastateofnd,”hesaid,“byhi
anthatitisnotnecessarilytheresultofanyparticularcause”
thisratherstiltedbeginningdidnotpleasehianditbeoreobvioustohihat,everhe
ghtsay,hisunhappinesshadbeendirectlycausedbykatharine
“ibegantofindlifeunsatisfactory,”hestartedafresh“itseedtoaningless”hepausedagain,butfeltthatthis,atanyrate,rue,andthatontheselinesheuldgoon
“allthisneykingandenhoursadayin
anoffice,sitforwhenonesaboy,yousee,onesheadissofullofdreathatitdoesntseeotter
bitious,youreallright;
189
nightandday
youvegotareasonforgoingonnoyreasonsceasedtosatisfyperhapsineverhadanythatsverylikelynoetothinkofitreasonisthereforanything,thoughstill,itsiossible,afteracertainage,totakeoneselfinsatisfactorilyandiknocarriedon”foragoodreasonno”i
yfalyandallthatkindof
thingitogetoninthewasa
lie,ofurseakindofselfglorifiost
people,isuppose,ivelivedalstentirelyangdelusions,andnoattheaageoffindingit
outianotherdelusiontogoonhthats
unhappinessauntsto,ry”
therearyverysilentduring
thisspeech,anddreraightlinesupon
herfaceinthefirstplace,ralphdenontionofrriage;inthesend,hespeakingthetruth
“idontthinkittofindattage,”shesaid,
ent
“youvegotalittleney,haventyouyes,”shencluded,“idontseeshouldntbeaverygoodplan”
theycrossedthefieldinpletesilenceralphwassurprisedbyherrerkandalittlehurt,andyet,ontheselfthatit
possibletolayhiscasetruthfull
